Thursday, September 1, 2011

releasing


Yesterday, as I reacted too quickly out of frustration to my oldest, I felt it.

Pain, disappointment, shame.

She felt them all, too, and as I held her close, and her tears fell down, I secretly hated myself for being too quick to anger.

Why is it so easy to react out of my flesh, and yet, so difficult to let Christ live freely from me?

When will saying 'I'm sorry' just be another phrase that has somehow lost it's merit, and will just not be enough.

And there it was again. The lie that has been hounding me since day one. The lie that shouts in the dark, and whispers when I'm in crowds. The lie that tries to convince me all the time that I'm not good enough. And no matter how hard I try, I never will be. The same lie that motivated me to be...a good girl.


Today is the release date of Grace for the Good Girl, friends. I'm so thankful for truth. So thankful for grace.


As I held my little girl, I looked at her with teary eyes and said,

"You know, Mommy is still learning how to be a Mommy, just like you're learning how to be a daughter."

She looked at me in surprise and said, "Still?"

Yes, still baby. Always. I will always and forever be in need of His grace.

Emily will be signing books on September 15th at Barnes and Noble at Friendly Center in Greensboro, NC. Come out and join us!

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